The Yoke of Perfection

I'm in the heat of the end of the semester (although the actual temperature this morning when I woke up was 12 degrees). But you know what I mean...things are getting crazy about right now. Group presentations...final projects...and a comprehensive short answer exam staring me in the face. And in the middle of all this I'm hit with the thought of carrying the yoke of perfection. It is real heavy around here sometimes...trying to make good grades and all. Sometimes we soften the language for it and call it "excellence" to make ourselves feel better. But I'm realizing that when we, or I should say, when I carry this yoke of perfection, I loose FORMATION. I'm so wrapped up in doing things right to get a good grade that I loose the ability to let the assignment form me. Case in point: I'm working on a "Personal Spiritual Development Analysis" that looks at my 31 years of life and process how God has intervened at certain points. Well I have spent about two hours this afternoon looking through books and examples of other assessments tryring to figure out how to make this assignment look good on paper so that I will get a good grade. By God's grace giving me this reflection, I'm ready to throw my hands up in the air and say, "OK, I don't care what grade I get on this...what I really want is to allow this assignment to form me more into the likeness of Jesus Christ." To get rid of my own agenda and just be along for the ride on this project.

So that's it. I really have nothing else to say about this right now. Anybody else (of the 5 people that read my blog) feel this yoke of perfection??